On a beautiful Sunday, I went to the emergency doctor to give me my injection... I was 21 years old and was consuming over 20 drugs a day, and got my daily dose...
To make the long story short, the doctor failed to give correct me the injection, and I left my body. I was clinical dead...
When I came back in my body, I understood that my life was from the beginning in the hell... I was punished every day, mostly for things I never did... Until I didn't feel anything.
I defined my life new, it should be the sum of my happiness.
I started with psychology, participated in many groups, began to meditate, became fast spiritual, and all my diseases disappeared.
I learned that everything has two poles. We can only experience happiness when we have experienced the opposite feelings, like sadness, anger, frustration,...
And most of our time we hold unconsciously on our suffering and can't experience happiness. So faster we release our negative feelings so faster we can feel positive emotions like love, joy...
Let go your negative feelings!
Assuming that others are always happy, live a perfect life because... This is totally wrong. People can act to be happy, and we interpret their show as reality.
Always is something missing or not perfect in our life. Nobody has a perfect life. Why we should focus on what is missing?!
Bhagwan or Osho told us we should always be happy. That was for me nonsense. When we separated, my girlfriend and me, I wore black instead of the red that we should wear as disciples of Bhagwan. This gave me the right to be in sorrow.
Be what you are, and don't make a show!!!
We can't chase happiness or love because we are a vehicle of our feelings. The feelings have the control over us! And that is proved by the brain science through brain surgery and through psychology. There is only a one-way road between emotions and thoughts. This means our thoughts follow our feelings. We can only suppress our feelings, and this will cause diseases and long depressions.
We can be thankful for everything that we get, be it a challenge or a fulfilled desire. And that is the game changer. Because with our "Thank you" we connect to the divine.
What is with spiritual happiness?
I learned that everybody can experience bliss and divine love, regardless of which situation. For that, we need the awakening of the Kundalini and to connect us with the divine.